A LETTER TO ART

Dear Art,

I want to be an artist. People on Bluesky are supporting me, I shouldn't have judged them like I was; I love humans. I need to kill my bitterness, I think I finally have. All of that anger was just a thorny defense against rejection. I nearly reached a breaking point. Yes, that previous letter was nearly a suicide note. Before writing it I had attempted suicide and ended up in a psych ward. After getting out I still didn't feel much better. I still wanted to die, I was considering doing it again.

Everything just feels different now, I don't know, maybe the medication is kicking in lol. Either way, I'm happy about it. I actually tried an artshare on Bluesky and people repsonded so nicely. It made me really happy. I know social media isn't something I should base my worth on, and I'm not. I just value human connection through art. My art is communication. And while yes, I do have personal stuff I find best to never share, the stuff I do share, I want to reach others with. It's important to me.

I think I'll be okay. I think I'm going to make it. I think I will. I'm wishing. I'm praying. Thank you to anyone who supports me, even without expressing it (though it'd be nnice if you did).
I want to be an artist.

Sincerely,
Nori Jammy